he has graduated..

juz saw his pic on fb tat he was tagged in bronwyn's photo n it was taken during his graduation day..he looked smart wif his attire n the gown...if he is graduating wif me then i could have taken photo wif him..but sadly i still have 2 more years to go...he has already back to singapore n i miss him a lot..juz hope tat he will come to malaysia for vacation if i want to see him again...DD i really miss u..i'm really suffering because u didn't know tat i really fall in love wif u...i kept tis in my heart for a long time edi...pray tat god will send this msg to u n let u know my feeling..

can't control myself from being missing him

have been coming back for a week n from the day i came back i keep thinking n missing him...the only memory i have wif him is the last day of ocf i went dinner wif him n 2 other ocf buddies..n aso he wished me happy birthday on my fb wall all in short form...i think tis is the special memory of me n him as well..i replied him but he din reply anything so may be he thinks that is not important to reply...i was very happy that he wished me but sad tat he can't celebrate wif me as i came back earlier...he will be going back sg on 16 DEC n i know i won't be seeing him for a very long time...miss the days when he teased me..DD i wan u to tease me more...i will feel uncomfortable if u dun tease me n without u in ocf...i have feeling on u but i'm still guessing whether u have feeling on me too...when i was in the airport tat day i really hope he will call me n say something to me..but sadly no until i was boarding...when i see some couple go back together in a very happy mood i will think tat if we r together n come back together tat is very good..but my wish will never come true..when the plane flew off i wanted to cry n when i listen to 1 song i feel like crying more..the thing i wish now is u will come to malaysia to travel around again since u came here before to buy ur shirts n u feel tat the convenient store near my house is like malaysia convenient store...i'm scared to express my feeling n i can oni wrtie here...DD i know u have someone in mind..but i'm not sure cause wat i heard from u is u broke wif someone recently..i dunno..i won't forget our memory...hopefully my wish will come true n we can be together..DD hopefully u won't forget me as well..i will miss u a lot...

pray to god tat we can realy together n will be very happy...i know the chance may be not really big but i still hope for tat even though the chance is small..i won't give up...

not in mood + feel tired

tis few days i was like not in mood..my whole person like controlled by him....keep thinking him..keep thinking wat is in his mind...i really dunno...hopefully he won't give me hope n then let me drop into a very worse situation....not only tat..i'm not feeling well as well..my throat is feeling like not comfortable...9 days more until my last paper n he won't have any paper after tml..so he won't be in rmit anymore.....juz wan to do something in tis few days before i can't see him anymore.....dd...i juz hope to talk to u more before i leave n not seeing u for 2 years i guess...i dunno how to express my feelings but when i see him i will like silence n din talk anything to him...i really pray hard tat i can talk 2 him f 2 f then it will be comfortable for me..but i guess i will be silent for awhile before i talk anything to him...going back to malaysia next friday n ocf still on...i guess he will still go.....but definite;y can't celebrate birthday wif they all including him.....really really wish to talk to him in this 2 weeks...><..haiz..

happy or not????

haiz..yesterday went ocf n he was the drummist!!! he played quite good n very cool...attracted by him anyway...he was sitting in front of me after the 2 worships....i wanna talk to him but i couldn't open my mouth n talk wif him nor other ppl....we went to the prayer trip then we watched a video after we were back having discussion after the video....bron started to ask me how was the video n i told her it was ok...then she turn around n said she doesn't know wat he think about n we started to say..but i din really voice out in the conversation then she asked me any issues tat i wan to bring up for tis week..n i said exams..i did badly in nd paper..so he started to ask me stuff about my exam n said i will be ok...n statred to say something else..i asked him abt his exams as well...he said he did quite well..good for him...then worships continue..he continued to play drum..so cool of him....after ocf ended..at 1st he said that he din wan to go for supper he wanted to go home n watch something..but ended up went wif us to old town....he teased me when we were carrying the stuff to the car..he stood up looks like he is much more taller than me...i told him to stop doing tat n wanted to hit him but i couldn't......then we walked together to old town n we din talk..juz him n others...i really dunno wat happend to me..i juz din wan to talk to anyone..except him....we had supper in old town n when we reached there we found a place to sit n i chose the place i wanted to sit as i din aspect he will sit beside me..he was planning to sit beside me but din know y he moved again wif jean.....after my food was here n i waited for others...he sudden;y asked me wats the ring for...n i toldhim it's a random ring..nth meaningful there...he told me when he saw the ring will think of the lord of the rings...== lame...then we juz have our own conversations wif other ppl...i realized that ke kept looking at me sometimes...i dunno y...then we finished supper..i wanted to go home but they wanted to go to bar to have drinks...i go the other way but he feel weird as i went the other way myself....i looked back n went back there...he told me they r going to bar..n i said i'm going home..if he wanted to join then juz go...i think he feels not safe if i go back myself..so he wanted to walk me home wif hannah...may be he feel need to go the whole way to my house n go back to the bar is very far so he ask other ppl whether can ask jerry to fetch me home...but at the end ended up walking me home...on the way i realised many thing..at 1st..he saw my phone wanted to take my phone but i din wan to..he ask me can i have ur phone awhile..then i gave him..i so scared he will see nick's pic in my phone...because i saw him closing the phone..i took back ..act he wanted to see where i change the light..i juz showed them n he realised tat it is inside..we walk along n hannah wanna have a look on my ring because everyone is curious abt it..she touch it n he touch it as well...nearly back home....n he ask me am i waving at someone...act i'm not..i;m juz playing on my phone acessories...hannah ask me am i waiting for msg..i said no..he sudden;y ask me whether i have bf...surely no la...hannah ask me summore whether i have potential bf...omg..i dunno wat to answer...juz answer no.....if not i say is him meh...haiz....then walk walk n reach my home..when we reached my house n passed by the convenient shop he said feeling like malaysian shop..hannah said no n ask me to say no..i was blur n ask wat was her question again..when i know i juz said definitely no....n say bye to them after that..haiz..n i know he broke up wif someone recently....

tired n no mood to do anything

today is the bus stats exam n i din do very well..it was juz ok..i'm quite worry about that because my mid-sem test was not tat good...hopfully i can pass or more than pass...pass is enuff actually as i really dun wan to fail..the feeling of fail is very bad....another thing tat makes me feels bad is him..i kept thinking of him n dunno wat to do...tis 2 days i've been moody n my mind is full of him...wish to talk to him again but can't meet him unless we r going to ocf or eating supper together...if i dun talk wif him i feel really dunno wat to do..== hopefully everything will be ok

wat to do to him?

haiz..so stupid la...yesterday i got teased by mr ivan..somemore in an unready situation..yesterday we all were free n we chit chat together..when ivan said i've grown taller n i said no..turned back..he passed by..he passed by is nth..the problem is when mr ivan saw him he asked me "eh.u like felix ar?" i was like...so so so embbarass..cause his distance wif us not very far away..n mr ivan's voice is loud too..he sure heard everything..i really scared n embarras..keep saying no..then when he was still at outside..mr ivan said "later i ask felix whether he likes u anot" tat time i feel really shit..i juz toldl him don't.then he came in..n mr ivan really called him..i looked at mr ivan said don't.n he looked at me as well..i really feel scared to look at him tat time..somemore feel like crying..i really dunno wat to do..wat i do next was tat i go find ivan again n ivan called him again..i really arrggh..i found adam n ask for help...n he juz said...slowly la..so swt...n ivan said..i'm juz teasing u..WAT!!! tease dun make this thing tease la..not every people accept it..then i strait away i go in office..cause no one there n i really wan to hide awhile..i dunno how to face him at all..i stated wanna cry..but then cathal come in..i stop it..he ask me to remind him something..n he told me tat dun care wat ivan said.he likes to make ppl embarrass..then i go to the back there n phone wif ks..told him everything tat happens..but he busy..then nvm lo..i go in n i saw felix was talking to cathal..i dunno wat the r talking but fter cathal came in he told me to ignore ivan..i told him i'm ok..is juz i dunno wat felix is thinking about tis..cathal told me he is ok wif it..i was like ok abit when i heard tat..but..the think is..he said ok oni..but i can't read his mind..i hadn't back n there are customers there n cathal not here..so i juz help..after i settle the 1st customer..felix put the ham slices to me..without telling me anything..so i purposely go ask him n test him..he replied me n i feel ok..tat time i feel tat i wanna talk to him about tat..but it was like..annoying..he is ok wif tat somemore wan to ask him..not good lo like tat..then i din ask..went off n head to the night market..

fire!!!i'm on fire!!!!!!

i'm really on fire now...2 weeks ago my car got to an accident..send to claim insurance until now haven't ok...

i sure know need 1 month la...but my dad wan to claim insurance..wat i can do..

i really regret din tell him better to send to the car repair shop..at least they will be faster..

wan me 2 wait 1 weeks i'm ok...but now 1 month.somemore next week my parents are going to china..no one else is going to send me to work..tat is the problem..

wan me to take lrt..no problem..but..problem is..i need to change train at masjid jamek..n then after tat i need to walk a long distance oni reach my work place..

u wan me to do this for juz 3 days no problem..the problem is my parents are not going to china for juz 3 days..they will go at least 1 week..

wan me to go to work like this for 5 days.. morning need to wake up early sommore..i think i can tired till wat aso dun need to eat juz sleep..

my sis in-law is juz working at technology park..5-10 minutes from my house..she aso need to drive..suppose she can lendme the car to drive..last time the car bang n send to repair for 2 days she juz drive my car without informing me..she juz tell my parents..then take my car edi..

she knew my car was in the process of repairing..but she din lend me the car to drive..she juz work near to our house..soemmore the time she start to work is same as me..she can drive there n then let me drive to work lo..i will be off at 4..should be no problem tat i go fetch her..no fair lo!! Her car send to repair doesn't have transport to work but end up drive my car to work without informing me..when i realise my car was not hear n i asked my mum then i oni know..arrhh!!!!!