It has been a week since conference. I really really had a great time during the 7 days in Sydney and conference. Even when the conference is over and i'm back to Melbourne, i still miss the days i spent with him and the group during conference. I feel that i missed him more after the conference..this is what he told me in whatapps that i'm having the Joel withdrawal symptom. i admit it because my brain is just full of him. It is really small chance of coincident that we are staying in the same accommodation and the receptionist give them the wrong room which happen to be me n friend's room. God, can you tell me are you doing something between us? Is this the right guy for me? I don't want to get the hope and later gone. My mind just keep telling me that..this guy has something to do with me but..the problem is..he is trying to go after Joanna..i don't know what he is thinking, i don't know what he feels. During the 7 days i'm happy but at the same time i feel lost.. i'm struggling whether i should tell him but i decided not to because i really don't want to spoil our happy memories. Carina told me to put it to God first, i do..and the thing i have now is depend on him and see how he works it out. On the last day, Pastor Steven's sermon strikes me, God wants him to tell me that i'm doing better what i think i am. God, i hear you,i surrender everything to you and let u work out my relationship with him. i know you will direct me to the right way! I know Joel you are yet to know my feelings to you but i believe God will tell you one day.
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